(19)

my body is yearning for yours
my lips want to kiss yours
my tongue wants to taste you & only you
my heart wants to only love you
my mind wants to think about you & only you
don’t you get that?
don’t you get how much I want to wake up & see you there or know you’ll be home soon
I’ll hold my tongue
I’ll distant myself from that attention people give me just because I’m me
not in a cocky way but because they know my love weighs heavy that if I’m open they could get a glimpse of heaven
God made my heart this way
gentle it can be your soft place
it can be only for you if you let it

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(18)

I understand alone time
I understand not wanting to talk about how you are feeling at a certain moment
I understand boundaries
I understand balance
I see your scars
I see your heart
I see how you contradict yourself trying to convince yourself that you’re not ready for love when in reality you are just afraid that love will leave you again…
but you pushing love away will make it leave….
you denying love existing will allow it to not exist in your life no matter how much someone wants to love you… no one is going to allow you to make them your own personal punching bag …
they do not deserve it not being loved
& You deserve love so please let it in..

Post 4

People always ask me if I want another child & the thing is I don’t mind having another baby it’s just I have so much I want to do & I’m very limited already adding another baby before that 4/5 year mark sounds like alot of chaos….I want someone to be there as much as possible & love me inside to out all the bad all the good enough to stay & still I feel a beaming light shining regardless rather or not I’m wrong or right but you are gentle with me everytime….I want my children to witness that kind of friendship & love…. recently I heard someone I care about deeply express sometimes they can’t talk to me because I’m way too serious but I’m rarely serious in my eyes & my support systems aren’t stable so I have to be the serious one when it comes down to responsibilities…I just need everything to be okay…I want my plans to be achieved & I want to not have to worry