Category Archives: poetry

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remember our first walk when the group of white bird flew across the pond & rest there…I rest my head on your chest I’m sure this was the day we created an unconditional love when you said it & the word hit the back of your throat & bounce back out into the palm of my hand…how could I not love you?
how could I not see your face & smile? even in the mist of angry I can’t hurt you too…the type of love that molds you the type that breaks you & rebuilds you…when you cry happy tears on valentine’s day because in the card he writes a corny line that reminds you that love does not expire … It always grows

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you keep me hoping keep me praying I want everyday to feel like the first day..they say we never will feel this way but it seems possible with you
you are nothing like them even your approach is different
You soften me & caress me invite butterflies in my belly
everytime I’ve felt chills it was the representative for snakes disguise their true intentions
maybe you didn’t mean to hurt me but you did & that’s all I’ll remember all the good times meant nothing because secrets were hidden
all that guilt you carried around giving me hopes of a future when you were never truly going to offer it
but it seems possible with you…a new start seems possible with you….a destination seems possible with you

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He offered his presence she accepted & denied the way men do with guarded hearts & naked bodies without second guessing or overthinking the consequences
how did you get here?
all I remember is your brown skin glowing & a smile that seem so inviting…it was never your intention to make him feel comfortable but it was so easy to cause deep down you know that even ruins grow in overload
you protect yourself while exposing yourself
something he can’t do…
he vents a little but you don’t care that’s not what you came here for
I don’t want to be reminded of all that has gone wrong
I don’t want you to tell me to stay strong
I don’t want to feel anything

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I’ll only have you if you help me forget …I’ll only have you if you love me more than I love you…ill only have you if you heal me completely…had a few attempt but the challenge is too complex everything wired to my mind you think you’ve seen my heart but haven’t even got the invite yet…that good huh? just to being a woman gives me the power to but my power isn’t limited to manipulation ..what my mouth can do…what my body can do… I’ll leave the deceiving to you…can’t be consistent for long…trying to figure out why I don’t want to come over anymore….or why I call him & not you …some comfort never fades even after years of no communication just body language

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17 days you will be 27 can’t help but think about the last time we connected she told you what happened & you tore the house up asking who & why but still left with no answer too ashamed to tell you the other day I had a dream about it I know the person was a substitute maybe they all are & really I’ve been searching for you….there’s a doubt in me & there’s a hope in me …can you really survive this? we know loss to well I’ve lost you a few times this time seems different you’re finally consistent with disappearing maybe you are who I got that bad habit from too distance too closed in but open enough to feel like I’m there but never really am…sometimes you call & I can’t make myself answer just to hear your voice shakes me than I realize that you are not here that breaks me …

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the way your smile curves slightly to the left
the golden glow of your skin
the way your lips move when you said “I need you”
love how your voice cracks when you’re expressing yourself upset or frustrated
Maxwell’s “known these things” play in the background
I comb your hair the same color as the leaves in fall
you are perfection at its greatest form
the muse every artist pictures

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this might be a disaster waiting to happen but I’ve been waiting for so long…..needed you to survive once….I erase my mistakes right after…I don’t hold on to bodies I never long for…I’m afraid to feel all the feels you once gave me. don’t touch me…don’t tempt me..how does it feel to be loved by you now? is it better? is it different?…you don’t like arguing that’s all we use to do I hold it all in & then boom!! you know that you know me …you know me ..like really know me … I don’t think I ever let someone see that vulnerability…you broke me & misplaced me…lost me somewhere in between distance & fear…