Category Archives: writer

(19)

my body is yearning for yours
my lips want to kiss yours
my tongue wants to taste you & only you
my heart wants to only love you
my mind wants to think about you & only you
don’t you get that?
don’t you get how much I want to wake up & see you there or know you’ll be home soon
I’ll hold my tongue
I’ll distant myself from that attention people give me just because I’m me
not in a cocky way but because they know my love weighs heavy that if I’m open they could give a glimpse of heaven
God made my heart this way
gentle it can be your soft place
it can be only for you if you let it

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(18)

I understand alone time
I understand not wanting to talk about how you are feeling at a certain moment
I understand boundaries
I understand balance
I see your scars
I see your heart
I see how you contradict yourself trying to convince yourself that you’re not ready for love when in reality you are just afraid that love will leave you again…
but you pushing love away will make it leave….
you denying love existing will allow it to not exist in your life no matter how much someone wants to love you… no one is going to allow you to make them your own personal punching bag …
they do not deserve it not being loved
& You deserve love so please let it in..

Post 4

People always ask me if I want another child & the thing is I don’t mind having another baby it’s just I have so much I want to do & I’m very limited already adding another baby before that 4/5 year mark sounds like alot of chaos….I want someone to be there as much as possible & love me inside to out all the bad all the good enough to stay & still I feel a beaming light shining regardless rather or not I’m wrong or right but you are gentle with me everytime….I want my children to witness that kind of friendship & love…. recently I heard someone I care about deeply express sometimes they can’t talk to me because I’m way too serious but I’m rarely serious in my eyes & my support systems aren’t stable so I have to be the serious one when it comes down to responsibilities…I just need everything to be okay…I want my plans to be achieved & I want to not have to worry

(16)

I speak things into existence not believing it myself…
what if I told you I prayed for all sides of you to be revealed even sides I’m afraid of..
what if I told you I’m a light worker, you compliment the sun & your smile makes me forget my troubles
when you’re inside of me my scars heal , my heart gets weak & I surrender…
the thought of losing you brings tears to my eyes & I hate it…
have you ever felt like you were suppose to be somewhere for a reason & you don’t know why….well that is now…
my heart longs for you
my body craves you
but I’ll rather you walk away than stumble on your own heart
I know I’m not the only one who has loved you but I promise you I’ll be the only one to ever love you like this…

(15)

afraid that I’ll give my body away to someone that won’t understand that allowing you to have me after trauma is a battle every kiss , every touch , every time you dig deep inside me
I want to accept your flaws
I want to know you
every part
I want to cherish every moment
I don’t want toxicity
I don’t want lies & deceit
I want truth & growing
I want acception & knowing

(14)

Look at me trying to submit to you. I’m just saying I’ll rather go out my comfort zone for you than any other man. I see your scars when you don’t even realize it. I’m just trying to be the one that you get right. The woman that shapes you until you mold. The type of man I wouldn’t mind my son to model after. I’ve prayed for a few things & one is to die happy with or without someone beside me though it would be nice if you could be him. The only problem is you don’t even believe you are & I don’t know how to help you see that you could be. All I can do is love you the way God does not exactly but close enough to. I’m still human so bare with me , take your time with me. Embrace these things that you may have not seen or felt before. I am willing to bend & break for you. I’ve said it many times before. I’ve prayed for a few men but never as much as you. That it self is progress. Make a woman out of me at the age of 23. Shape me like I so desperately want to do for you..