Look at me trying to submit to you. I’m just saying I’ll rather go out my comfort zone for you than any other man. I see your scars when you don’t even realize it. I’m just trying to be the one that you get right. The woman that shapes you until you mold. The type of man I wouldn’t mind my son to model after. I’ve prayed for a few things & one is to die happy with or without someone beside me though it would be nice if you could be him. The only problem is you don’t even believe you are & I don’t know how to help you see that you could be. All I can do is love you the way God does not exactly but close enough to. I’m still human so bare with me , take your time with me. Embrace these things that you may have not seen or felt before. I am willing to bend & break for you. I’ve said it many times before. I’ve prayed for a few men but never as much as you. That it self is progress. Make a woman out of me at the age of 23. Shape me like I so desperately want to do for you..
She will never love you because she has loved someone who has the same blood as you. He has felt her toss & turned inside her & left a mark. You’ve never kissed or made love but the way you look at her tells it all. He is in love with someone that doesn’t love him back & why does she have to be me. I’ve never been the one to break hearts but what I’ve done to you is like premeditated murder
I want to love you like I never loved anyone before I am taking my time to master it. I want to know you in to out every particle. The goal is to love you unconditionally. It isn’t impossible for me even if you make a fool out of me I’ll still be happy. If I love you how I’ll want to be loved that would be progress. I am easy to run , easy to not forgive & forget. I don’t want to love you conditional but the way God loves us unconditionally.
” you took the light from beneath my eyes & made a sun”
you are karma no need for the devil to come too
you were enough sorrow
I’ve been hung on your walls of insecurities & I’m been broken due to you
I’ve been longing & wanting I always do no matter the man
I am never full
I don’t want a snack
I need him to be a buffet enough & more for later
I don’t want to crave
I am tired of being the one to save
I know I don’t love you I couldn’t the way my mind doubts this connection.. love is believing
I know I don’t love you I couldn’t everytime you don’t put up the phone I wonder are you talking to her..love is trust
I know I don’t love you sometimes I think about him & the way his hands know my body parts in the dark , he’s familiar & you are still so new to me..love is being faithful & consistent it is not a sometimes thing but everyday you choose to be with the same person despite their flaws, despite the differences
I know I don’t love you because these record of wrongs are bold & they repeatedly play in my mind & revenge be on the tip of my tongue like a gun ready to kill your ego
if I loved you I would forgive you
I would welcome you into my heart every morning
I would lay these weapons down & surrender
I know I could love you but the boy in you won’t allow me to
why should I try if you won’t?
not loving at all is better than being the only one loving
…isn’t it amazing how a horrible situation can turn into the best outcome…how this caterpillar of a man will be in this man made cocoon & God willing he will become a butterfly one day soon..