She will never love you because she has loved someone who has the same blood as you. He has felt her toss & turned inside her & left a mark. You’ve never kissed or made love but the way you look at her tells it all. He is in love with someone that doesn’t love him back & why does she have to be me. I’ve never been the one to break hearts but what I’ve done to you is like premeditated murder
If I told you how difficult it is to fight against this DNA. All her fuck ups flow through these veins i’m destined for failure. Wanted but not needed body made through lust for lust praying it turn into love but never did. My walls rebuild themselves weekly forcing myself to not give up but into him unselfishly. He is the moon on a night full of regrets. I’m known to shut my heart’s door but not my mind it wanders from time to time. I know how to open my butterfly of a flower for you to bloom through me but not for me the hurt you had to go through before me should of had you ready. I know lust leaves you thirsty & allows you to be a slave to any girl that can make you cum I never could climax for a man who didn’t love me Never could give all of me if he didn’t get to explore my body like a foreign country I am the once in a lifetime a site worth learning like history if you don’t get to know me fully you’ll never understand me
…isn’t it amazing how a horrible situation can turn into the best outcome…how this caterpillar of a man will be in this man made cocoon & God willing he will become a butterfly one day soon..
When we first met chills would run down my spine whenever I heard your name. I would get butterflies when I saw your face. Ladybugs would visit my front door.
How many times do I have to prove that your heart is safe with me?
Are you even trying?
I know I’m not what you’re use to but isn’t that why you came here..
Aren’t you the same man that said you want me in your life forever ?
Your actions aren’t showing that..
What has gotten you so afraid?
all your secrets are safe here
I am not here to judge you
I am not here to deceive you
I am not here to hurt you
I am here to love you genuinely
because when you love someone it is unconditionally
I have patience but it’s like I’ll be waiting for a maybe & though love is patience
It’s a difference between gaining your trust & proving my worth
It’s hard for me to numb both of our pain & still fill my heart with enough love for the both of us
what can you supply?
milk chocolate skin that glows endlessly
want all those things fade?
days will come when you won’t smile or laugh
days will come when your calm spirit will overflow with sadness & you will need someone to hold you closer than before & I’ll be there
one day you will be old & your hair will turn gray
I’ll be there to help you on your sick days when old age consumes your body
the way cancer spreads without warning
what I’m trying to say is I want to be there for every milestone every growth I want to witness every struggle I want to help you get through
this life doesn’t have to be spent alone
& your past doesn’t define the now
In the midnight sun
I’ll cross the ocean just to return to you
If you were light-years away I’ll take that chance to be with you
this bet is worth the hand
this bet is worth the lost of any man I met after you
they can never compare
they are not aware of what I need
The wants never was important to me
though I want your body next to me every night I won’t find someone to fill that void but I’ll hold myself tight….tight enough to convince myself that these arms belong to you