People always ask me if I want another child & the thing is I don’t mind having another baby it’s just I have so much I want to do & I’m very limited already adding another baby before that 4/5 year mark sounds like alot of chaos….I want someone to be there as much as possible & love me inside to out all the bad all the good enough to stay & still I feel a beaming light shining regardless rather or not I’m wrong or right but you are gentle with me everytime….I want my children to witness that kind of friendship & love…. recently I heard someone I care about deeply express sometimes they can’t talk to me because I’m way too serious but I’m rarely serious in my eyes & my support systems aren’t stable so I have to be the serious one when it comes down to responsibilities…I just need everything to be okay…I want my plans to be achieved & I want to not have to worry
laying in bed beside my daughter & yesterday I saw my father & realize how much love can change someone’s life..
I never seen my father so excited & calm around anyone like he is around us & his good friend lady & friendship is so important…us women can build up a man or break them down we have that ability.. I watch this woman help my father through friendship & love now she is teaching me the same it’s so frustrating & inspirational…sometimes what she tells me makes me take a few steps back & look at myself she is truly a guidance… & she says I am teaching her too which is crazy because I don’t look at myself as any type of inspiration at times…I love to help people but I barely know how to help myself… recently I have been trying to heal a few things in my life or past life the wounds are still so new… Life is definitely difficult but it’s so worth it & everytime I see my kids I am honored to be a mother. God chose me to be a mother & what a beautiful thing that is & God chose me to love the people who allow me to be in their lives & I am so happy to be apart of this world so happy