Tag Archives: me

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crashing against your waves of uncertainty
your element disguise
emotions you can’t provide
usually the one pretending like I don’t know
but a woman’s intuition is always right I can’t say I’m satisfied at the end of the night…cause I find ways to separate myself from you even when I’m with you…patterns I have to break
never felt love without insecurities
never felt love without being uncomfortable
never felt love that didn’t make me ask questions
here we go again we’ll start off as friends then I’ll let you in …once you see inside of me you will never forget the view

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the things that haunt me

1.the way your eyes focus on me when you talk & I look everywhere but at you
2.the gripping of your hands
3.that you say you can not live if I am not in your life
4.how I invite you in everytime knowing your true intentions
5.that you are the only mistake that makes sense
6.the truth is I loved you by a mistake
7.we only fuck when Im in need of comfort I’ll rather you hold me but you don’t know the true meaning of being there
8.you were never my first choice you just looked to good to say no to…
9.the way your love has blind me
10. the fact that I am the lamb that has been sacrificing & everyone has ate but me

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someone to share your blessings with
someone to share your secrets with no judgement
someone who fights & you see it clearly
someone who accepts & understands
someone who forgives instantly
someone who knows when to control when not to
someone who can balance it out for me
sometimes I’m scared
sometimes I want to fall short just because I see you
sometimes you get upset but your anger isn’t what I’m use to
sometimes that’s scary too
sometimes I see them in you
I know I’m not worthy of your inconsistency
You are going to have to let me go because I won’t do it…
I won’t do it

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I pray for your peace 
for your growth 
for you to discover self love in order to love me correctly
pray you find courage
pray you find the beauty in you 
pray you see the forevers in my eyes 
pray you feel the chills on my skin & know this body belongs to you 
pray you stay 
pray you make a way everytime back to me after arguments
pray you forgive yourself 
pray you forgive me 
pray you stay 

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I understand alone time
I understand not wanting to talk about how you are feeling at a certain moment
I understand boundaries
I understand balance
I see your scars
I see your heart
I see how you contradict yourself trying to convince yourself that you’re not ready for love when in reality you are just afraid that love will leave you again…
but you pushing love away will make it leave….
you denying love existing will allow it to not exist in your life no matter how much someone wants to love you… no one is going to allow you to make them your own personal punching bag …
they do not deserve it not being loved
& You deserve love so please let it in..

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afraid that I’ll give my body away to someone that won’t understand that allowing you to have me after trauma is a battle every kiss , every touch , every time you dig deep inside me
I want to accept your flaws
I want to know you
every part
I want to cherish every moment
I don’t want toxicity
I don’t want lies & deceit
I want truth & growing
I want acception & knowing