Tag Archives: personal

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remember our first walk when the group of white bird flew across the pond & rest there…I rest my head on your chest I’m sure this was the day we created an unconditional love when you said it & the word hit the back of your throat & bounce back out into the palm of my hand…how could I not love you?
how could I not see your face & smile? even in the mist of angry I can’t hurt you too…the type of love that molds you the type that breaks you & rebuilds you…when you cry happy tears on valentine’s day because in the card he writes a corny line that reminds you that love does not expire … It always grows

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crashing against your waves of uncertainty
your element disguise
emotions you can’t provide
usually the one pretending like I don’t know
but a woman’s intuition is always right I can’t say I’m satisfied at the end of the night…cause I find ways to separate myself from you even when I’m with you…patterns I have to break
never felt love without insecurities
never felt love without being uncomfortable
never felt love that didn’t make me ask questions
here we go again we’ll start off as friends then I’ll let you in …once you see inside of me you will never forget the view

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time seems to speed up in the happy moments & they fade away quickly I don’t remember by the end of the day & lately I haven’t been real with me like no matter how hard you try to make them see they won’t & don’t care to but being okay with that is the hardest task…it’s okay to question yourself….it’s okay to fuck up but don’t allow it to be repetitive..letting unbalance emotions drive you to put yourself in uncomfortable situations reopening wounds from the past…having no where to run felt like the room was caving in & that’s on me…a mistake that will never be erased due to my own insecurities..maybe I have to hit rock bottom to be where I’m suppose to be
I can be vulnerable involving everything rather be there for you than for me ..karma do you come even if I have a reason ? do you come because I know better & I didn’t seem to care that day?
I’m afraid I won’t show up for who I am suppose to show up for…I’m afraid the damage is done

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the things that haunt me

1.the way your eyes focus on me when you talk & I look everywhere but at you
2.the gripping of your hands
3.that you say you can not live if I am not in your life
4.how I invite you in everytime knowing your true intentions
5.that you are the only mistake that makes sense
6.the truth is I loved you by a mistake
7.we only fuck when Im in need of comfort I’ll rather you hold me but you don’t know the true meaning of being there
8.you were never my first choice you just looked to good to say no to…
9.the way your love has blind me
10. the fact that I am the lamb that has been sacrificing & everyone has ate but me

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someone to share your blessings with
someone to share your secrets with no judgement
someone who fights & you see it clearly
someone who accepts & understands
someone who forgives instantly
someone who knows when to control when not to
someone who can balance it out for me
sometimes I’m scared
sometimes I want to fall short just because I see you
sometimes you get upset but your anger isn’t what I’m use to
sometimes that’s scary too
sometimes I see them in you
I know I’m not worthy of your inconsistency
You are going to have to let me go because I won’t do it…
I won’t do it

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I understand alone time
I understand not wanting to talk about how you are feeling at a certain moment
I understand boundaries
I understand balance
I see your scars
I see your heart
I see how you contradict yourself trying to convince yourself that you’re not ready for love when in reality you are just afraid that love will leave you again…
but you pushing love away will make it leave….
you denying love existing will allow it to not exist in your life no matter how much someone wants to love you… no one is going to allow you to make them your own personal punching bag …
they do not deserve it not being loved
& You deserve love so please let it in..