Tag Archives: personal

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you keep me hoping keep me praying I want everyday to feel like the first day..they say we never will feel this way but it seems possible with you
you are nothing like them even your approach is different
You soften me & caress me invite butterflies in my belly
everytime I’ve felt chills it was the representative for snakes disguise their true intentions
maybe you didn’t mean to hurt me but you did & that’s all I’ll remember all the good times meant nothing because secrets were hidden
all that guilt you carried around giving me hopes of a future when you were never truly going to offer it
but it seems possible with you…a new start seems possible with you….a destination seems possible with you

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crashing against your waves of uncertainty
your element disguise
emotions you can’t provide
usually the one pretending like I don’t know
but a woman’s intuition is always right I can’t say I’m satisfied at the end of the night…cause I find ways to separate myself from you even when I’m with you…patterns I have to break
never felt love without insecurities
never felt love without being uncomfortable
never felt love that didn’t make me ask questions
here we go again we’ll start off as friends then I’ll let you in …once you see inside of me you will never forget the view

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I’ll only have you if you help me forget …I’ll only have you if you love me more than I love you…ill only have you if you heal me completely…had a few attempt but the challenge is too complex everything wired to my mind you think you’ve seen my heart but haven’t even got the invite yet…that good huh? just to being a woman gives me the power to but my power isn’t limited to manipulation ..what my mouth can do…what my body can do… I’ll leave the deceiving to you…can’t be consistent for long…trying to figure out why I don’t want to come over anymore….or why I call him & not you …some comfort never fades even after years of no communication just body language

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time seems to speed up in the happy moments & they fade away quickly I don’t remember by the end of the day & lately I haven’t been real with me like no matter how hard you try to make them see they won’t & don’t care to but being okay with that is the hardest task…it’s okay to question yourself….it’s okay to fuck up but don’t allow it to be repetitive..letting unbalance emotions drive you to put yourself in uncomfortable situations reopening wounds from the past…having no where to run felt like the room was caving in & that’s on me…a mistake that will never be erased due to my own insecurities..maybe I have to hit rock bottom to be where I’m suppose to be
I can be vulnerable involving everything rather be there for you than for me ..karma do you come even if I have a reason ? do you come because I know better & I didn’t seem to care that day?
I’m afraid I won’t show up for who I am suppose to show up for…I’m afraid the damage is done

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this might be a disaster waiting to happen but I’ve been waiting for so long…..needed you to survive once….I erase my mistakes right after…I don’t hold on to bodies I never long for…I’m afraid to feel all the feels you once gave me. don’t touch me…don’t tempt me..how does it feel to be loved by you now? is it better? is it different?…you don’t like arguing that’s all we use to do I hold it all in & then boom!! you know that you know me …you know me ..like really know me … I don’t think I ever let someone see that vulnerability…you broke me & misplaced me…lost me somewhere in between distance & fear…

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the things that haunt me

1.the way your eyes focus on me when you talk & I look everywhere but at you
2.the gripping of your hands
3.that you say you can not live if I am not in your life
4.how I invite you in everytime knowing your true intentions
5.that you are the only mistake that makes sense
6.the truth is I loved you by a mistake
7.we only fuck when Im in need of comfort I’ll rather you hold me but you don’t know the true meaning of being there
8.you were never my first choice you just looked to good to say no to…
9.the way your love has blind me
10. the fact that I am the lamb that has been sacrificing & everyone has ate but me

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by the end of the year we lose contact we find each other again no “where have you been” just “welcome back” …”can I see you?” someone said we have to make room in our hearts for the people we love & for who they love ….could you? for him he will always be the comfort I run to when no one else is there to listen truth is I’ll rather have a best friend than a man ..maybe the thought of being vulnerable to where I have to invite you to feel me not only physically but emotionally is terrifying ..I know that’s why you hesitated to think you might have something worth keeping it’s only right to fuck that up too it’s only right to pull a you on you… but you can’t substitute what cannot be compared when it’s only one of its kind…