Tag Archives: poet

(37)

I’ll only have you if you help me forget …I’ll only have you if you love me more than I love you…ill only have you if you heal me completely…had a few attempt but the challenge is too complex everything wired to my mind you think you’ve seen my heart but haven’t even got the invite yet…that good huh? just to being a woman gives me the power to but my power isn’t limited to manipulation ..what my mouth can do…what my body can do… I’ll leave the deceiving to you…can’t be consistent for long…trying to figure out why I don’t want to come over anymore….or why I call him & not you …some comfort never fades even after years of no communication just body language

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(36)

time seems to speed up in the happy moments & they fade away quickly I don’t remember by the end of the day & lately I haven’t been real with me like no matter how hard you try to make them see they won’t & don’t care to but being okay with that is the hardest task…it’s okay to question yourself….it’s okay to fuck up but don’t allow it to be repetitive..letting unbalance emotions drive you to put yourself in uncomfortable situations reopening wounds from the past…having no where to run felt like the room was caving in & that’s on me…a mistake that will never be erased due to my own insecurities..maybe I have to hit rock bottom to be where I’m suppose to be
I can be vulnerable involving everything rather be there for you than for me ..karma do you come even if I have a reason ? do you come because I know better & I didn’t seem to care that day?
I’m afraid I won’t show up for who I am suppose to show up for…I’m afraid the damage is done

(33)

this might be a disaster waiting to happen but I’ve been waiting for so long…..needed you to survive once….I erase my mistakes right after…I don’t hold on to bodies I never long for…I’m afraid to feel all the feels you once gave me. don’t touch me…don’t tempt me..how does it feel to be loved by you now? is it better? is it different?…you don’t like arguing that’s all we use to do I hold it all in & then boom!! you know that you know me …you know me ..like really know me … I don’t think I ever let someone see that vulnerability…you broke me & misplaced me…lost me somewhere in between distance & fear…

(32)

the things that haunt me

1.the way your eyes focus on me when you talk & I look everywhere but at you
2.the gripping of your hands
3.that you say you can not live if I am not in your life
4.how I invite you in everytime knowing your true intentions
5.that you are the only mistake that makes sense
6.the truth is I loved you by a mistake
7.we only fuck when Im in need of comfort I’ll rather you hold me but you don’t know the true meaning of being there
8.you were never my first choice you just looked to good to say no to…
9.the way your love has blind me
10. the fact that I am the lamb that has been sacrificing & everyone has ate but me

(31)

by the end of the year we lose contact we find each other again no “where have you been” just “welcome back” …”can I see you?” someone said we have to make room in our hearts for the people we love & for who they love ….could you? for him he will always be the comfort I run to when no one else is there to listen truth is I’ll rather have a best friend than a man ..maybe the thought of being vulnerable to where I have to invite you to feel me not only physically but emotionally is terrifying ..I know that’s why you hesitated to think you might have something worth keeping it’s only right to fuck that up too it’s only right to pull a you on you… but you can’t substitute what cannot be compared when it’s only one of its kind…

(30) ft.James

I spy looking into the sky beauty unparalleled wondering if I can get the chance to feel your aura…I’m not tryna put you on a pedestal but you’re one of a kind whatever mind made you definitely took its time you’re heavenly in essence and especially divine
I find… Comfort in your presence..you could make my heart your safe haven….lay your head on my chest when you’re in need of rest I’ll give you love whenever you need saving..in the mist of my solitude that’s when I found you patience is a virtue
The moment the Father birthed you before the waters below covered the earth a mind to blow mine erupted with awe, colors, and passion. Whites, blues, purple contrast a collision of all figments of imagination wouldn’t exact this… even if practiced not some sort of magic but fate like a soulmate or even a twin flame mirroring each other I see you in me all the beauty…were you design for me ? I promise to add to your happy can’t promise I’ll always be the reason cause when the seasons change I do too but my love will remain the same

(29)

he called without me having to first
I knew something was wrong but I still answered calmly
when he heard my voice he ask , “what am I to do?”
the first time I heard a man cry I was 16 he was 46 golden cheeks & a smile that I would pay to see
the first time I heard a man cry I choose to love consistently , unconditionally
that I wouldn’t find a replacement for you or me
that my eyes will only see you
that my body will stay faithful to you
that my heart will beat for you