Tag Archives: poetess

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you keep me hoping keep me praying I want everyday to feel like the first day..they say we never will feel this way but it seems possible with you
you are nothing like them even your approach is different
You soften me & caress me invite butterflies in my belly
everytime I’ve felt chills it was the representative for snakes disguise their true intentions
maybe you didn’t mean to hurt me but you did & that’s all I’ll remember all the good times meant nothing because secrets were hidden
all that guilt you carried around giving me hopes of a future when you were never truly going to offer it
but it seems possible with you…a new start seems possible with you….a destination seems possible with you

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(37)

I’ll only have you if you help me forget …I’ll only have you if you love me more than I love you…ill only have you if you heal me completely…had a few attempt but the challenge is too complex everything wired to my mind you think you’ve seen my heart but haven’t even got the invite yet…that good huh? just to being a woman gives me the power to but my power isn’t limited to manipulation ..what my mouth can do…what my body can do… I’ll leave the deceiving to you…can’t be consistent for long…trying to figure out why I don’t want to come over anymore….or why I call him & not you …some comfort never fades even after years of no communication just body language

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time seems to speed up in the happy moments & they fade away quickly I don’t remember by the end of the day & lately I haven’t been real with me like no matter how hard you try to make them see they won’t & don’t care to but being okay with that is the hardest task…it’s okay to question yourself….it’s okay to fuck up but don’t allow it to be repetitive..letting unbalance emotions drive you to put yourself in uncomfortable situations reopening wounds from the past…having no where to run felt like the room was caving in & that’s on me…a mistake that will never be erased due to my own insecurities..maybe I have to hit rock bottom to be where I’m suppose to be
I can be vulnerable involving everything rather be there for you than for me ..karma do you come even if I have a reason ? do you come because I know better & I didn’t seem to care that day?
I’m afraid I won’t show up for who I am suppose to show up for…I’m afraid the damage is done

(29)

he called without me having to first
I knew something was wrong but I still answered calmly
when he heard my voice he ask , “what am I to do?”
the first time I heard a man cry I was 16 he was 46 golden cheeks & a smile that I would pay to see
the first time I heard a man cry I choose to love consistently , unconditionally
that I wouldn’t find a replacement for you or me
that my eyes will only see you
that my body will stay faithful to you
that my heart will beat for you

(24)

someone to share your blessings with
someone to share your secrets with no judgement
someone who fights & you see it clearly
someone who accepts & understands
someone who forgives instantly
someone who knows when to control when not to
someone who can balance it out for me
sometimes I’m scared
sometimes I want to fall short just because I see you
sometimes you get upset but your anger isn’t what I’m use to
sometimes that’s scary too
sometimes I see them in you
I know I’m not worthy of your inconsistency
You are going to have to let me go because I won’t do it…
I won’t do it