Category Archives: personal

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I’ll only have you if you help me forget …I’ll only have you if you love me more than I love you…ill only have you if you heal me completely…had a few attempt but the challenge is too complex everything wired to my mind you think you’ve seen my heart but haven’t even got the invite yet…that good huh? just to being a woman gives me the power to but my power isn’t limited to manipulation ..what my mouth can do…what my body can do… I’ll leave the deceiving to you…can’t be consistent for long…trying to figure out why I don’t want to come over anymore….or why I call him & not you …some comfort never fades even after years of no communication just body language ….a hug & ears ….some love & a pier the decision to jump or stay afloat… I’ve seen you float …

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17 days you will be 27 can’t help but think about the last time we connected she told you what happened & you tore the house up asking who & why but still left with no answer too ashamed to tell you the other day I had a dream about it I know the person was a substitute maybe they all are & really I’ve been searching for you….there’s a doubt in me & there’s a hope in me …can you really survive this? we know loss to well I’ve lost you a few times this time seems different you’re finally consistent with disappearing maybe you are who I got that bad habit from too distance too closed in but open enough to feel like I’m there but never really am…sometimes you call & I can’t make myself answer just to hear your voice shakes me than I realize that you are not here that breaks me …

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the way your smile curves slightly to the left
the golden glow of your skin
the way your lips move when you said “I need you”
love how your voice cracks when you’re expressing yourself upset or frustrated
Maxwell’s “known these things” play in the background
I comb your hair the same color as the leaves in fall
you are perfection at its greatest form
the muse every artist pictures

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I can’t look at you without crying
I am apart of you
you have all the good parts
the way one tear slides down your cheek innocently when you are broken
knowing there will be plenty more to come
knowing I won’t always be your place to run
my heart will be aching too
when you find comfort tell me you’re safe
promise me you will always find a haven
create heaven wherever you go
be the peace

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someone to share your blessings with
someone to share your secrets with no judgement
someone who fights & you see it clearly
someone who accepts & understands
someone who forgives instantly
someone who knows when to control when not to
someone who can balance it out for me
sometimes I’m scared
sometimes I want to fall short just because I see you
sometimes you get upset but your anger isn’t what I’m use to
sometimes that’s scary too
sometimes I see them in you
I know I’m not worthy of your inconsistency
You are going to have to let me go because I won’t do it…
I won’t do it