“time be it now” Jamie said I hold her tight as she closes her eyes the piano plays I want to change it to Isis so I can sing the last part to Yemoja she makes us tea every night special kind that cleanses she said I soak my body wanting a new one that spirit can’t reach ” you owe some time” I heard him say grabbing my left hand I let it be known that I’m needed else where abandoning him again “he’s just there” I thought like every one before I drown myself in art cleaning brushes from the night before I attempt and stop I attempt and stop like I do I always do

You proceed one foot in front of the other tripping over your impatience longing for the side that’s just a tid bit greener walking through the maze there you find Victoria you’ve spoken about her a few times but finally I get to see her face understanding now why the healing took so long crush me to see your interaction she hands you the key you unlock and hand it to me I held it tight so tight I start to bleed you offer bandages but admitted you liked the scene to witness someone willing to sacrifice that much getting to feel the unwavering love cut throat of me to ignore the existence of past soul ties when you are near because there he was brushing his hair and sitting right by the blue lotus you tell me it’s bigger than us now..

wrapping my never ending love around you before you walk out the door not sure if you’ll make it back this has always been our reality mama working hard best she can do then we have our own children and protect them twice as much you be the man that stays you be the man that doesn’t have to be asked to show up in any way for me …for them.. for us..I remind you you’re royalty daily a king you were born to be no stolen gold no mistake I stumbled across.. you were made for me …I cherish the moments good memories even when our tongues spit out words that are sharp our ears wish to not hear we apology genuinely each time growing..  one day I heard a knock on the door your brother’s hands bloody I immediately knew you were gone I fall to my knees and hold our baby tight

what a calm spirit

what a hallelujah

when you enter the room

what a breath of new life

a safe point

a compass in the middle of the maze the light at the end

a halo

a dove

the wishing well

the rainbow

you are soul food I’ll never crave again 💕

Bird (freewrite)

some create through pain but not resulting into dysfunction 
some things are haunting your existence 
how do I learn to love you?
how could you ever love me?
I am the reason for your suffering 
blame me… blame me…
Don’t tell me to my face pretend to be genuine like them…you are apart of all the misfortune but you are not a mistake…you are my lullaby the reason I cling to life…you are my daydream…no comparison to reality 
your existence is the result of heartbreak but you don’t have to cause pain 

(42) ft.Damir

lights flickering and your brown skin shouldn’t be hidden your brown skin for showing never seeing such beauty the way it forms dips and curves a king that needs to be served a king that stands by his word actions speak louder

never not knowing her true beauty the urge to seek it out of her patiently every touch upon her physique let’s paint a different picture my queen I speak louder so that you can hear me looking for your acceptance a man can go crazy standing alone on his own knowledge you keep me sane making love to you and we become one I provide the comfort that allows you to release unconsciously as if I am your safety you are safe with me…just like a cocoon you keep me safe during my developmental stages never giving up on me though at times you got weary you seen the real me …here I stand because the warmth of your heart healed me could you take the weight from my shoulders? could you love me enough that my heart overflows? Never shall I deceive nor wreck you…you are my woman I stand proud you heal my wounds and I shield you from the darkness past trauma turns to testimonies you are the scripture I’ve spoke in tongues for during prayer didn’t know what I needed now I can’t live without you